Wednesday, October 27, 2004
PTMD
I'm suffering. My Princess Tofu lost an eye and part of her nose. I feel entirely responsible. I'm grieving and mourning the loss of my baby. Hmmmmmmm. *get over it* alright.. hmm i think i should really work hard for the Os. I really wanna enter JC. Cos i could get into uni ultimately.. (my dream) though i may not be able to enter the local uni, i JUST might actually be able to apply for admission into the overseas unis.
This leads to me thinking: Will I be able to live my life knowing that I may never return to the sunny island of S'pore and be satisfied with just living my own life elsewhere, never to see the familiar surroundings that I grew up in, with my family, friends and of course the one person I just might(make that a won't) never bear to let go.
NAH! I'll sooo miss J! Haha... I'm missing him terribly but I feel worse abt the Tofu. Hmm.. i hope i get over it. Surprised him today. Walked him in. And he told me that he was 90% expecting me to turn up. His reaction gave off vibes which told me that he was just like.. oh. you're here. *sheesh* I felt pissed cos i soooo didn't feel appreciated! But he apologised.. so.. apology accepted, cookie mon.
Time for me to march off to my table and study...Or else... I'll sooo get scolded by the fierce Mr. Tan!! I'm scared. *not in the suggestive sex role play way, of course.* J would so say.. You just had to say that right?? argghhhh! C:*laughs* Will end his day later.. just can't get him outta my head. I look forward to each time we talk on the phone, especially when i get to wake him up and end his day. Hmmmmmm...... i like him more and more each day =o)
Babe signing out~
This leads to me thinking: Will I be able to live my life knowing that I may never return to the sunny island of S'pore and be satisfied with just living my own life elsewhere, never to see the familiar surroundings that I grew up in, with my family, friends and of course the one person I just might(make that a won't) never bear to let go.
NAH! I'll sooo miss J! Haha... I'm missing him terribly but I feel worse abt the Tofu. Hmm.. i hope i get over it. Surprised him today. Walked him in. And he told me that he was 90% expecting me to turn up. His reaction gave off vibes which told me that he was just like.. oh. you're here. *sheesh* I felt pissed cos i soooo didn't feel appreciated! But he apologised.. so.. apology accepted, cookie mon.
Time for me to march off to my table and study...Or else... I'll sooo get scolded by the fierce Mr. Tan!! I'm scared. *not in the suggestive sex role play way, of course.* J would so say.. You just had to say that right?? argghhhh! C:*laughs* Will end his day later.. just can't get him outta my head. I look forward to each time we talk on the phone, especially when i get to wake him up and end his day. Hmmmmmm...... i like him more and more each day =o)
Babe signing out~
