Shifting sands of time

nice song.. enjoy! =)

i'm sooo mad todae.. steph came by and i tried my tuition skills on her.. it was not bad! amazingly though, i flunked A maths in the past.. but i managed to teach her a maths! How odd...

we were at compass point earlier and i got the Jack jack pillow from mac..
Here's an excerpt of the convo between me and the mac dude..

MD: Hi.. May i help you?
C: Yeah.errr...
(3 minutes later....)
C: I'll have the Mcspicy double EVM.. I WANT THE PILLOW!

Forgot about the food... all i wanted to do was to hug the pillow cos jack jack looks soo uber cute!
I also wanna get one of the wax hand sculptures...

I'm an insomniac tonight..So here i am, at 3.13am, wide awake, with my mind filled with nothing but J. Things i wanna do in the future with J, how i want my life to be with J, how the incredibles rocked.. haha, xmas plans, his xmas gift..(could i wrap myself up in lotsa wrapping paper?)

i reflect alot, often wishing that my life could be more perfect than it already is.. but i fail to realise that my life has never been better.. i've got my J (the perfect boyf), my family (dysfunctional, typical conservative Asian, but still a cool one..), and my friends.. (kel, fadinahhh...we rock*) What more could i ask for? Life is beautiful. savour each moment*

Babe signing out~
[music playing: Aerosmith- I don't wanna miss a thing]

Aerosmith - I don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

(Chorus)Don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
Cause I'd miss you baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

Lying close to you,
feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
And then I kiss your eyes,
And thank God we're together,
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever,
Forever and ever.

(Chorus)

And I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
I just wanna hold you close,
And feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah YEAH!!)

( Chorus to end )

yay... i went out to town yesterday with kel&fadinah... whoo hoo! and i got to spend loads of quality time with J today.. we caught the incredibles.. haha

i noticed something.. when we're together, time passes really really quickly!!!! But then again, in reality, it hasn't been THAT long.. you get what i mean? Eg: I spend 7 minutes with him waiting for a bus... but it feels like 3 seconds!!! *whines* okayyyyy... char gets her way, and waits for the 34th bus before going home... yeah.... right. The 3rd bus lar..

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I was rather POed with my school because they simply refused to give me 3 more marks to reduce my L1R5 from 23 to 20.. though i didn't qualify for the JC with my prelims result, i don't give a damn... Because i wanna head down to the CI route!

I think that the centralised institutes have not been given the due respect and recognition that they deserve.. i think that we should really stop this assumption that people with crap marks like mine end up there.. A 3 yr course, i feel, would be better because the pace is slower and i think that i'll be more free to devote time to my CCA(s) ( i was thinking netball team and tennis) and being blur and dumb as i am, i think that i would be allowed to have more time to grasp the concepts.. blablabla...We should also cease the evil deed of clumping ITE together with the CI. The CI is SOOOO not ITE! It is a cetre offering A level education. So what if the course is 3 years? At the end of the day, i think that it would be better to have stellar grades though you may take a year more than to totally risk everything and struggle or even fail in the JC.
I've made my mind up. I want to go to the CI. For good. I can't take the "Char's sooooo gonna be going to the JC" crap/ "Char= JC girl" association anymore. The truth is that i can't. and even if i qualified, i won't go. Look.. i'm not trying to prove a point or be stubborn.. I like the environment of the CI... It reminds me of Rosyth's campus and HS' Lowland road campus.. I feel comfortable and i think that's my utmost concern.. =)

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listening to a nice song...

Whitney Houston - Saving all my love for you

A few stolen moments is all that we share
You've got your family, and they need you there
Though I've tried to resist, being last on your list
But no other man's gonna do
So I'm saving all my love for you

It's not very easy, living all alone
My friends try and tell me, find a man of my own
But each time I try, I just break down and cry
Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I'm saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient, just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy
I've got to get ready, just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
For tonight is the night, for feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love for you

No other woman, is gonna love you more
Cause tonight is the night, that I'm feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love Yeah I'm saving all my lovin
Yes I'm saving all my love for you
For you, for you

*i'm saving all my love for J*
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Oh and yes.. here's the intelligent char post of the day... (J loves intelligent char)

Fashion is cyclical. that's the reason why retro is sooo hip! They run out of garbs to wear, and they start to dig groovy ol' mini skirts, with modifications (shorter lengths, cutting, fabrics, colour...)

oohhhh another cyclical thing is education.. think of the case of single session -> double-> single session again? =)

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Before i go off, here's a saccharine-sweet thought
(Disclaimer: Keeps reader's hair standing on end.. )
I'm just a silly Char who's madly in love with J,
and not a 16 year old who's in love with a 23 year old.
[We don't give a damn about physical age]
[-cherish.treasure.-]

Babe signing out~~~~

now that i'm beginning to think about it seriously, the Os were actually easy and manageable! Especially my sub chem paper. i'm rather confident.. but then again, i'm worried about the bell curve.. maybe it takes alot more to get an A1.. i'm afraid that i won't be able to enter a JC now.. *bites nails*

hmm.. but then again, i still have a few more papers to get over and done with.. so i should really just stop being a woorywart. =)


anyways, J's going to have his paper later.. hmm i hope he does well.. i know he will.. he's smart.. :)

how am i supposed to feel when he's commitment phobic? Since the moment he told me that he was scared abt getting into another relationship,i've been feeling a little turned off, even to the extent of asking myself: are we in a commitment-less relationship?

NO! I love him and stuff.. and we ARE committed to the other.. as in we don't go around flirting with other guys or gals.. and well.. i'm like..supposed to get rid of his phobia.. a tough task to accomplish

i really have no idea what's coming over me but i feel increasingly detached from him.. PMS or exams stress.. we'll see after BOTH our exams are over... in the meantime, char's going to mug, and J's gonna mug too!

back to academics...i felt relieved that i could manage the elect geog paper.. it was usually like my worst subject, but i feel rather confident abt it this time.. what can i say? Char is paranoid... nah. she's the BOMB! haha expected the Os to get really tough and stuff.. i guess not... haha =) hope that i could do well and get into a JC. as to which JC, i really couldn't care less anymore.. TJ's outta ma league.. and if i couldn't get into a JC, i hope i could get into some biz course or smth in poly...

grrrr just wish that i could be a lawyer...some how. i feel that it just totally fits the way i want life to be. Harvard's tuition is ok lar.. 30 smth K USD per yr? hmm according to J, it'll be like.. about 100 odd K when you cover the living expenses etc.. but i don't wanna go to harvard anymore!

i have friends (ie: Kel,shan,yuna, ivee...) and J.. it's not that he's bogging me down, i just don't see myself being THAT far apart from him/my family/my friends.. not with the fact that we have an age gap.. or that we're sooo like.. addicted to one another.. i don't wanna have my addiction/cravings satisfied by anyone else.. anywhere else

[i'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me... for now.. till it's past the exam period]

J just told me yesterday.. that the scholarship he's under is not just any other scholarship.. it's the PSC scholarship. *char went.. wow* haha hmmmmmm o....k......... hmm *ponder*

*char is now super stressed cos she wants to be just like J!!!*

It's REALLY official... haha I'm J's girl. I think that i've been putting it off cos i was waiting for a nice date...111104

went to the motorshow with him..yesterday.. and it was 100% pure spontaneity! haha check tis out..

10 Nov 2004
Telephone convo

J: So..what time do we meet?
C: Let's be totally spontaneous! Sms me when you wake up and we'll see...
J: Hmm.. Ok. Where are we going?
C: I've got it planned. Don't worry...
J: Ok.. then where do we meet?
C: How bout smsing me when you leave your house?i'll tell you then..

So much for being spontaneous! haha *laughs*

Time really flies when we're together.. the wait for the MRT was supposed to be like...6 mins.. ..................which totally felt like 2 mins lar!

Discussion of the day: Is there chivalry in the modern society which emphasizes the equality of sexes? (which happened to be sparked off by J holding a door open for me)

Factoid of the day: Do you know how you get brainfreeze? ( We were eating lasagna and cheesecake at the same time at NYDC)

How silly we got: We walked approx. 340 degrees round the fountain of wealth to look for NYDC!! And we still think that we're more sincere than those who queue up to touch the water in the inner circle, thus increasing the chances of us striking BOTH 4D AND TOTO, PLUS winning a merc and BMW 3 series for ourselves.

How lame we were: While reciting the phonetic alphabet, we were at W.. and i said vodka. (makes no sense, i know..) BUT HE THOUGHT I SAID WODKA!!!! Haha and here we have our very own acrostic sort of alphabet...

J&C Styled Alphabet

Apple (cos Char doesn't know how else to start the alphabet)
Barney/bite/us/oo/HB/eating round the bush
Char/ookie/lumsy/rap/ute/alifornia pizza chicken..i mean kitchen/omplicated
Diao/amn/irect in your face
Esplanade/854/8 oct/emperor of lameness/escalator/11 nov
Fone/riendster/ifty mins (sorry for making you wait that long)/LAWWEEDDDDD!!!!!
Giselle
Hmm/appy/andphone/ot,sticky,sweaty/aha/ugs/onda S-2000
I love you!!!!!!!!
J J lar!!
Kasper/kisses
Lame/ove ya/ick(that kinda got me confused too)/ate (Char is always late!)
Maths/r. Tan(ie: J) /ouse (think nibble)/Macs/iss ya
Nibble
Os/uch/ldies
Pasta/eek-a-block/robability/rocrastinators
Queen of lameness
Relationship (it was kinda confusing in the past.. i guess it's cleared up)
Spontaneous/-2000/akae sushi/neeze/izzle/weet
Toys'R'Us/ofu
Undefined (our relationship was undefined..at a pt of time)
Viagra/indicated/engeful lover (that J soooo isn't!)
Wodka/ake up call
Xp/anga
Yarrrrr/ada yada/oda/ou.............!!!!!
Zzz

I LOVE J LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!!!!

Babe signing out~

What is your pet peeve? Mine would be trying to entertain someone while that someone totally pushes it. (I.E.: Takes me for granted, insulting me for kicks like nobody's business.)

sorry for the looong wait for an update... been pretty much bogged down by prep for the ongoing Os. i think i could have gotten EVERYTHING right for my chem today. *happy*
yup. you heard me right... FULL MARKS.

whoo-hoo! i credit my success to my great chem tutor...Jess! And of course, my baby J deserves credit too.. for being there for moi.. and listening to my crappy lame stuff.. he's even planning out my bdae already! he's so sweet..i'm gonna get diabetes! =)

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Typed an argu originally but someone just had to make me feel bad. Want a look? I'll send it over to you personally. Let me know via MSN.

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to kel and shan: i do hope that you guys work hard for the other papers.. so that my treat today can be justified! haha do yourselves proud okies?? The unbeatable trio shall soar! as for the bimbo duo, (*wink*) HECK THEM! kekekeke

to J: Hey baby..... *i miss ya*

to Charlotte: i hope you're not les...

to Mr. Delifrance: i love coffee!

to Kasper: Goodnight!

to Yuna: Good luck for bio and geog!

Babe signing out~