Shifting sands of time

repeated occurences of deja vu.
you blend into the shadows of the crowd.

i don't even know who i am anymore.
look into the eyes that used to overflow with joy and sparkle.
in the place of vivacity now lies void, vacant, distant emptiness,
even i don't recognise.
do you know what, or who you are looking at?
tell me. because i don't.

dear god.
i think i sold my soul to the devil.
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i miss the old happy me; been questioning existentialism- what's the purpose/meaning of my existence. contemplating suicide? haha.. no. but rather, i feel that some decisions that i've made may have been... well, wrong.

and the time to pay has come. promos in another 7 weeks. i am so dead.

i once said
hey. let's go to a place
where we'll lock the rest of the world out
and it'll just be the two of us.
you,and me.

so we got an island.
OUR island;
far from the rest of the world,
just like how we wanted.

adam and eve,
you said,
me and you.
that's the way it's gonna be.

a beach house was where we lived,
tossed all our troubles and care away.
we had a porch overlooking to the distant sea.

in the day, we'd go to the beach and frolick.
at night, we sat on the porch
i'm locked in your warm embrace, and all i think is
i want to sit here all night, in your arms while you stroke my hair
and the only sounds i hear are crashing of the waves
and you.

that smart doofus got a 100 buck kino voucher for GP grade improvement. (honestly, i feel i'd deserve a 1000 dollar one. *grins* =DDDDDDDDD)

uh-huh. yesyes hun.
the NZ vs SA match.
home and away huh

haha you stupid thing. you are sick.
still go mug. haha
SERVES YOU RIGHT THAT YOU'RE DOWN WITH THE FLU!
that'll teach ya not to stay up late nights to mug.

i'm not that much better off. been missing LOT of sleep trying to do loads of work, frantically trying to catch up and save my ass before promos. i'm getting like what.. 3 hours of sleep.

yes, i still DO blog. i need to preserve my sanity.. like. hello.
sighh. i WILL get promoted,
YEA VINCE. i will. ((:

haha there. updated it.
hope you get better soon.
THEN WE CAN CATCH THE SA vs NZ game!

personally, i would rather have NZ win. but if carter ain't playing, i would not watch. EYE CANDYY ALERT!

- Daniel W. Carter from the All blacks. HOTTEST RUGGER ALIVE!


hahas.
watched tri nations last night.
NZ thrashed Aussie 30-13!
*does a flop*

it inspired me enough to drive me to create this friendster acc:
haka_allblacks@yahoo.com.au

ATTENTION TO ALL RUGBY/BLACKS FANS. JOIN THAT THING!

the tries that blew my mind were rokocoko's and richie mccaw's.
way cool. check out planet-rugby for info. just discovered that i deliver LOUSY commentaries. hahas.

and yesyes hun, i will TRY to get sleep. REST WELL! ((:
love to all you other peeps out there. hope you all stay unsick. ((:
good luck muggin fer promos! ((:
i love YOU. still. ((:

i like being dark;;
so used to being happy and bright.
but i'm far from convention.
you, of all people, should know that.

slashmywrist.
hangmyself.
chokeonvalium.

for one fuckedup moment, these crap seemed. do-able.

fuck is the word of the day. lost my second phone in this year. (got this 4 mths ago)

ontop of that ,i got D,AO,AO.
how fucked up is that.FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.

i've loaded and spun the barrel.
now the gun's at my head.
youpullthetrigger.